Apparently lawn mowing isn't for the pregnant ones...

I've got 8 weeks to go on this pregnancy and I'm so very excited for this little guy to come! But, I've got a funny little story to tell that happend to me last night. It was around 7pm and Kylie wanted to go play outside and ride her bike around so I went out with her while skyler was playing the XBOX for a little bit. I didn't just want to go out there and do nothing while Kylie rode her bike. So, Skyler tried to mow our lawn a couple of days ago but we ran out of gas and so we just got some today for it. Anyways, it was all gased up and ready to go and so I figured I could just do it while Kylie rode her bike up and down the drive way. And besides, I love doing yard work! Seriously! I love to mow the lawn (I like the smell of fresh cut lawn too), to do the trimmings, and to make my yard look good. Now we haven't been keeping up on our yard lately because we've been really busy. But, when I get the chance, I love to go out and do what i can. Soooo... I started to mow the lawn (what's lawn mowing, right? It's not hard at all. You just push it around in even lines and it does the rest. It's easier than pushing a stroller, which I do as well), and a couple of men from my ward pull up across the street. They were volenteering to help a young mom in the ward mow her lawn, but they apparently saw me first. And one of them comes out of the car and comes up and I let the mower off. He says, "This right here is soooo wrong! You're not suppose to be doing this!" Inside I'm laughing because how many times have I heard that I cant do things that I want to do. I wasnt doing anything hard at all. Then, I thought that maybe he thinks that my hubby doesn't want to do it so I did it myself (haha). They all were pretty angry about it! So, I told them that I love to do yard work. Pregnant or not, I'm still going to do what I want to do as long as I feel safe about it. (mind you, Skyler told me before I went out and started, "you realize you're pregnant, right? You really shouldn't be doing this" I just said, "Yeah... And...??" like it was no big deal. Well, apparently it was!) So, I told them what Skyler had said, and they just laughed. The men asked if they could PLEASE let them do my yard for me if I let them borrow my lawn mower for the lawn accross the street. I told them they could deffinetly use my lawn mower but they really didn't have to do my yard for me. Well, I caved and let them do it. They even did the back yard too!! Scooped up dog poop and took out a couple of nasty sunflowers that had grown in my back yard over the last couple of weeks as well! I guess I'm not suppose to do yard work when I'm this pregnant!? I thought it was all very funny.... Skyler said to me when I had told him all of what had happened, "great, they probably think I'm freeking lazy or something..." And I didn't mean to have it all come off like this. So, he started cleaning our bedroom and putting laundry away. I thought this whole thing was pretty funny. But, to avoid any more "getting in trouble", I'm going to keep my yard work to the back yard where it's all fenced in the wood fencing so no one can see. I promise, I'm not going to push my self to far. I would never do that. I like to stay busy though. and if it's mowing the lawn that I want to do, I'm going to do it. However, I am so grateful that they stopped by and did all of that yard work for me. They had it all finnished with in 30 min (maybe a little less) and I know that I couldn't have had that done in that little amount of time. That's my silly story :)

My new stress...!

So, we just got news tonight that we've got one month to move out of this house. Our landlord is going through a divorce and needs to move back into this house for personal reasons, which I get (I think). But, WOW!! One month?! Really!? I'm 2 months from having this little guys and I'm freeking out here!! It would be different if we had a place lined up, or atleast one in mind. But we dont and I'm not about to just get a place just because we need to be out. I want to feel good about moving into the place and I want my kids to feel comfortable about it too (although, Skyler and I do get the final say so). I'll have about 4 weeks until Kyson will be ready to come and if I want him to stay in his little incubator for that long I'm not going to be able to do a darn thing around here! Which frusterates me completly! I'm so independant when it comes to moving. I love the help, don't get me wrong. But, I'm usually right there with the guys lifting furniture and moving as fast as I can to get the packing done and the move done as quick as possible. Not this time around I'm not! It's going to make me crazy! So, we are getting a storage unit tomorrow (hopefully) and are going to start moving things we dont need in there. Then I'll make some calls tomorrow as well, to see in any houses are for rent. And then hopefully with in a week, we'll find something (crossing my fingers).
On a more spiritual note, I know that I'm completly stressing out and I am planning on going a little more crazier than I am now with in the next month... I know that with out a doubt that this is going to be a good move for us and I do that everything is going to work out for the better of us. About 3 weeks ago, Skyler and I decided that we don't want to buy right now. The reason being is when Skyler is done with school, he's going to find a job in the field that he's going to school for (something in computer software) and if that ends up making us move out of town, then buying a house right now would be not very smart if in 3 years, we end up having to move. If we don't move, that's great! But, we feel we need to just wait, and waiting we will. But, I talked to our landlord about not buying the house and she told us that would be fine. She told us that she's going through a divorce and that if anything was to happen, it wouldn't be for a year or so. So, I did see us moving out eventually. The silly thing was though, latley I've felt that we weren't going to be in this house for very long, and i just chalked it up to, yeah, we're going to move within a years time. I didn't think 'not very long' would be 30 days! So, Skyler and I told our kids that we'd have to be moving soon and we still have to find another house. Our smart little Kyen came back with the comment of, "Okay, here's what we've gotta do. We've gotta think about this, think about it tonight alot, and then we've gotta pray about it, and then tomorrow we can talk about it. And everything is going to work out. I know it'. Yes, I'm not joking! Those wise words came from my sweet little 4 year old who's favorite game to play right now is Mario Brothers! Skyler gave him a big hi-five and I wanted to cry (partially because my hormones are through the roof right now). So, we've got alot of praying and thinking to do in the next few weeks and i feel as though I have ALOT of cleaning to do! I want this house to be in better shape than when we moved in and it will be. I will make sure of it, just so I know that we get our deposit back, no questions asked. To bring this blog to a close, I have so much faith that things are going to work out with this move and that our little Kyson is going to be a healthy baby coming into this world. And I pray that we find a house that we feel good about soon. All I need to do is just breathe...

Just a few thoughts and remembering of Kynzie Brei

         I was looking through pictures of when I was pregnant with Kynzie and I can still remember everything from when I was pregnant with her. All the emotions, the way I felt, how big I got... everything. And so, I got looking through the pictures and came across a few I'd post that reminded me a lot of her. I remember from the moment she came out, the very first thing Skyler said to me was, "hun, look how perfect she is!" and I didn't really get to look, she wasn't quite on my chest yet, so I just said, "yeah babe" but then he said, "No hun, really, look, she is so perfect!" Once I had her on me while they were cleaning her off, I really took a good look at her. She really was so very perfect! I don't know how to describe it. Maybe it was the feeling we got, or maybe it was just looking at her that made us feel like that, I don't know. But, she really was so perfect. I remember going taking her home, and how many people wanted to hold her and to talk to her. Normally, I would be so hesitant to let anyone around my babies, let alone hold them. But, with Kynzie, I didn't really have any fear of that (odd, I know). I guess I never really thought of it. Of course, I had sanizer EVERYWHERE I went and anyone who wanted to touch her had to put that stuff on. But, to get back to what I was saying, I'm glad I let so many people hold her and touch her and talk to her. She was an amazing baby and is still such an amazing spirit. I guess to sum all this mumbo-jumbo talk up... Remembering Kynzie is such a sweet thing and I love to talk about her with my kids every chance I get. I pray that they will always remember helping with the baths, letting her suck on their fingers (germy, I know, But it was the best thing that worked next to mommys milk- and not from the bottle, from me), holding her in the stroller when we went on walks, kissing her, hugging her and most of all, how much they loved her. I hope my kids are always as close as they are now to each other.

                                                                              
 Me, pregnant with Kynzie at 33 weeks!! Look at that Bump!

That's the very first thing that Kynzie did, was hold my finger!!

Kynzie, Skyler And I

Daddy loves his little girl!!!

   I could never get enough of her

 Kylie just loves her sister so very much!

 Kyen loves her so much!

Kyen and Kylie were always so carefull with her and they ALWAYS wanted to help with everything that involved Kynzie... giving her baths, giving her the binky (that she totally did not like one bit), and changing her diapers (yup, even the poopies!).

 Most recent of my handsome                      Kyky                                                 

 

 Most recent of my beautiful                       Kylie                                                  

   They are best the of friends! Now, if Kyen would stop digging for gold here...

                                                          

Kyen and Kylie love to be up here at the cemetary, especially by Kynzie's headstone :)

                                             

   This is it! The stone that we finally got put in after months of getting it the way we wanted it. It's so perfec think and fits our baby girl so well with how small yet bold the stone turned out to be :)

                                                                                    

My First Post...

"A blog! I need a blog!", I thought as I was posting on facebook more than it could handle. I absolutly love to write about my family, about my crazy moments, about my frustrations, and other things. And it's not for anyones entertainment really (although I'm sure that what I have to say is a little crazy and entertaining, and at times borring), but more for my sanity really. I love to go back and read about my days and look at pictures to bring back memories. I have many scrapbooks, and I have a journal. But, a blog just puts it all in one for me! And the cool thing is, I can print these blogs into a book, just for my kids to read when they get older (they'll say something like, "Dang, my mom was crazy!"), lol! Anyways, here it is, my very first post on my very first blog :)!