Five years already

I remember the day I found out I was pregnant with her. I remember the whole preganacy...best pregnancy I could have asked for. I remember the day I went to my doctors appointment and he said, "you're at a 5, let keep ya!". I had Kyen and Kylie with me, Skyler was at work, and all 3 of us sat outside of the doctors office and called him. Kyen said, " dad, we are having a baby today!" Skyler was so thrilled! Skyler drove up and then my mom came up a little later and took my two older ones. We were so excited to finally meet our new little one. We had waited all day before the hospital could get us in, it was hot and we were tired. We walked around all day trying to get aome contractions going. Nothing was working...nothing. We finally got checked in the hospital shortly after dinner and got the PIT started. So many emotions were going through me...through us. Skyler and I could hardly wait to meet her! 7 hours later, at 4:14am I gave birth to our 7lb bundle of pure preciousness. It had been the easiest birth I had so far. From the time she "dropped" she was out in 3 pushes. My doctor layed her on my chest and from that moment i looked into her eyes, I knew she was here on this earth for more than I had anticipated. She held onto my finger so tightly, and he daddy had that finger hold as well that morning she was born. 

That evening, my two older kids came in with their Grandma and Grandpa Klunker and uncle Robert. They sat upon my bed and were so excited to see their new baby sister. The love they had been waiting to give to Kynzie instantly sparked and the room was filled with such happiness. They couldn't get enough of her.

They didn't want to leave the hospital, but visiting hours were coming to a close and I was exausted. They were so sad to leave but I told them I'd see them the next day. Well, shortly after 24 hours of giving birth, I was headed home, to my kids, to my house, to my own comfy bed. I was tired but life felt so great! For every single moment that she took her breaths, for every person that got to hold her and feel of her sweetness, for every little moment Kylie and Kyen got to experience with her...all of those moments were Heaven sent. They were meant to be. I am so thankful for Kynzie and her willingness to be apart of those great moments, moments that are precious blessings we hold so close to our hearts. These blessings still continue even though she's on the other side of the veil.
This birthday has been a happier one for me. I usually have a hard time during these next 6 weeks. I feel like I go into this fog around this time because I just want to go back in time and relive those precious moments that I had with Kynzie. I just want her back. I would give a million natural births just to see her again, just to have her hold my finger one more time, just to hear her little baby giggles (none of my babies giggled as early as Kynzie did!). This year I can say that celebrating her birthday has been exactly that, a celebration...a joyous celebration. 

I love to talk about Kynzie, I believe it has helped with my healing process, one of which I know will be life long, until I meet with her again. Each year, it gets a little easier and each year, we get a little closer to our reunion. Until we meet again my dear.