Focus Danielle, just focus.

Tonight, was the first walk I've been on in quite some time. I felt cranky and mean and so unfocused. So I got out with the kids and sarah and her dogs and we walked for 45 min. It's been so busy with work...lots of work, kids and chores, that exercising has been pushed to the back burner. No, actually, exercise has been pushed out the window and dropped from 10 stories high. Dead. It died in my life and I miss it. I really need to make it a part of my routine again. It helps me focus a little of what I have lost focus on. Tonight I focused on these things...

1. Babies. As much as I love babies, I am no where near ready to have another little Neil running around. Bug has serious jealousy. Kysen loves the babies so so SO much that it scares me he might just strangle the babies. And Kylie will want the baby by her side ALL THE TIME... all the time. Kyen is the only normal one, haha. All this learned by baby sitting my little 2 month old niece tonight. 
2. Patience. It's not necessarily with those around me. I need to have patience with myself. I get so upset with how i think sometimes. I try not to let things irritate me but when they do, I have a hard time letting it go. Especially if it's of importance to me. 
3. Exercise. It's good for me. Mind body and spirit. Plain and simple. 
4. Personal Scriptures and prayers. Needs to be a daily routine. And not just "let's quickly get these done so I can get on with my day" type thing. I find that when I really sit down, let my kids be for a bit, and focus on the spirit then my day is a million times better than when I just speed through or say I'll do it at night and then I never do because I end up falling asleep. 
5. Maybe I should just go hide for a day or two when I'm going to do my monthly thing. Ever since I had Kyell, and I've started again, my emotions have been all messed up during that time. And my periods are alll messed up. Like every 45-50 days or so, messed up. I never use to be like this. Everything use to be normal and it's not anymore. 

Usually I write how much of a blessing today has been even though it's been a crazy one. I'll keep it short and simple and say this. I was able to focus on a few things that have been jumbled around in my head for the past few days. Now let hope I can apply these things to my life. That can count for a blessing.