2016 has been a year to rememeber

As looked at facebook, trying to wake up for inventory this very early morning, I didn't read a lot of new years resolutions, but instead read more about how 2016 has been and the hopes that 2017 will be that much better.
As I reflect back on this whole year, i look at so many things that have happened with our lives. We've been through so much this past year and its been quite the roller coaster. The ups and downs and all of the in betweens. This year, I have learned nore than anything else, that no matter how we plan for our lives to go, God always has a far more superior plan for us. But I have also learned that if we listen to our the guiding spirit, the great gift that our Heavenly Father has given us, then we will always go in the direction that He wants us to go, no matter how hard our trials may be. I haven't told a whole lot of people this, and I'm not saying this to have any kind of sympathy. I'm saying this because I have learned a lot from this particular trial. About two months ago, I started my cycle 3 days early, and it went on for almost two weeks. After a lot of thought, I summed it up to an early miscariage. After the two weeks, I stopped bleeding. Then the next month came two weeks earlier and I started my cycle again, 3 days early and this time it was heavier and went on for about the same time. So I made an appointments with my OB. I went in and had an ultra sound and sure enough I had been preganat. The ultra sound tech said that there was no fetus in there but looks like there may have been two sacks. She said that my body has already started to break down what was in there so my dr said that my best option would be to let my body finish what it was doing, I could take the pill to make it to faster, and if nothing happens then to schedule a D&C. Well, I chose to wait, and thought a lot and prayed about the pill and the D&C. Fast forward to now...So many emotions that I didn't expect has come from this miscarriage. I was 5 weeks along, but I honestly didn't feel hardly any sadness coming from it because I knew that it just wasn't time yet and that when I was time, it would surely come. Instead I have felt frustraions because my body just wasn't doing what it was suppose to do. I have felt my hormones be off so much that I either snap at people, or just get annoyed very easily. And I had no energy for my kids when I'd get home from work because even though I'm not actually pregnant, this miscarriage is making me super tired. Which frustrated me even more. With all of this happening, work had been super busy these past two weeks and I was excited about it and fully expected it. I love when work is busy! What I didnt expect though was to feel completely drained, both physically and mentally. Ringing in the new years all hyped up and happy wasn't exactly what I did. All I wanted to do was sleep but knew I couldn't because of inventory that happens in about 10 minutes.
What I have learned from all of this, hit me hard today. I need to trust in the Lord and our Father's great plan. It's greater than any of us can ever imagine. I love my husband and my kids more than they know. There really has been so many great things that have happened this past year. I wouldnt change any of it. Nothing. 2017 is another year to do bigger and better things. So, here's to a new year, with new beginnings.