And the gender is....

As the kids and I were sitting there in the ultra sound room, watching the ultra sound tech do her thing, everyone was on edge waiting to see what the baby was going to be...boy or girl.
As soon as she showed the little baby's bum, I knew, I could tell....it's a BOY!! Yep, a boy, we have another boy. Kylie was a little bummed but the more she has let it grow on her, the more excited she is getting that we have another little baby on the way that she can love on! Kyen KNEW it was a boy from the beginning. Him and my two youger ones are so very excited to have another brother! Kyell was the cutest... After the ultra sound, it set in for him that he was getting a baby brother and he started jumping and getting all excited with a big huge smile on his face and telling me that he is going to have a baby brother and telling me everything about having a baby brother and asking so many questions. His mind was going a million miles an hour. It was so sweet and so dang cute to see ❤️. So, my friends and family, we have got another little boy on his way. Next month we do the in depth ultra sound to see how he is growing and to see if everything is developing correctly.
About a month ago, I had made the decision that if this one was going to be a girl, I was for sure done having kids. There was no question about that. Now, I'm not sure. I had my mind so set on having a girl that I didn't think about much else. But that is definitely not a decision that needs to be made now. For now, I am happy that minus a few emotional and physical aches and pains, both the baby and I are healthy and strong so far and for now, I am focusing on the here and now...day by day.
Time to switch up seating arrangements in our car too haha. Older 3 in back and buggy and baby boy in front. It's getting tight, but we will make it work for now ❤️

Tough but worth it

Five days ago, we celebrated Kynzies 8th birthday. This one was particularly harder one than the recent past ones have. I have been an emotional mess most days, snapping at things I usually wouldn't, getting upset at the most rediculous things, crying over nearly everything that makes me even slightly sad. I blame this...

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 This pregnancy has been one of my difficult ones. Zero energy, tired all the time, not wanting to slow down, little positivity (I've had to work really hard on that one) and anxiety. Man, I know it's going to be worth it. I just don't appreciate how I feel. I tell my closest people that I might as well just go hide under a rock till I have this baby. I'm not as nice as I use to be before I got pregnant. I have zero filter so anyone near me knows how I feel. 

I know things will be okay, even if they are tough right now. 

She's my reason to keep moving forward and to keep believing that things will be okay. I remember this day like it was yesterday. So many memories and feelings come flooding back now and again. 

Summer break

We have a month left until school starts. These first 6 weeks have been anything but simple. Every summer my neices and nephews come over to spend some one on one time with their mom and get to spend some time with their cousins as well. We also have another neice and nephew that love to come over to hang out with their cousins too. So for about 6 weeks we have between 10-12 kids constantly in the house. It's insane and at times difficult. But despite the difficult times, a lot of fun memories have been made this summer. Those 6 weeks are up, things are going to begin to go back to normal (but we shall see... From my last post, change is the new normal, haha). Here's a few memories caught on camera that truly reveal these kids had a lot of fun 🙂